Breast Feeding

Breast feeding is way more difficult then I thought it would be. I wanted to do it for at least 3 months or until summer came. Unfortunately that won't be happening and I'm really upset by it because its our thing. Its the only thing I get to do with her, that no one else can do. I have to stop because Chloe likes to eat more milk then I have, which caused me to supplement. The mixture of both breast milk and formula was too much for her. She was having problems going poop and the past two days shes had an upset belly.

I'm just really bummed out that I could only make it two and a half weeks. Plus, formula is quite expensive.


[Chloe has been awesome though, shes already getting so big and shes starting to smile!]

Meet Chloe

Hi everyone,

I'd like you too meet my gorgeous daughter Chloe. She was born March 1st at 10:33 am and weighed 7.4 lbs, 20 inches long. She has some light hair and blue eyes.

I know its been awhile... BUT here she is...




I started having back pains the day before around 1:30 pm as the day progressed they were getting pretty bad. Later that night I was laying in bed, about to take a nap when I started having contractions. At first they were about 8 minutes apart and I wasn't sure if they were contractions so I messaged my mom to By the time she made it over, contractions were about 4-5 minutes apart. I didn't go straight to the hospital because I was told if it wasn't 3 minutes apart they would send you home. I went to the hospital not long after and the nurse sent me home because I was having "false labor". I went home, layed in my bed for another two hours and went back to the hospital. By then I am laying in trioge, contractions speeding up, back labor, no medication... for hours. Finally around 6 am or so, I'm put into my room.. still no meds. I keep asking for the epideral and all I kept hearing was "we have to wait for the doctor". The nurse FINALLY suggests phetenol until I can have the epideral.. I don't know where she was when I was saying "I don't care what it is just give me something". The gas mask was horrid and phetenol took away the back pain. THEN I was told I couldn't have the epideral, and the phetenol ran out, me = not happy. Then the doctor goes poking around to break my water, hitting Chloe's head in the process.. my water had already broken, just not a big gush. I finally had her after 15 minutes of pushing. Her cord was wrapped around her neck, but luckily she was fine. So the hours of pain, worth it.

I have been super busy the past week and I have been meaning to get on here and youtube to update everyone. I have been breastfeeding and it has been more difficult than I had imagined.

God, I love her so much. I can't believe she is here! She has brought the sun into my life and I couldn't be any happier (well... maybe with a tad more sleep haha). Chloe is a quiet baby, hardly ever crys, dosn't like bath time yet, prefers to sleep about 19 hours out of the day, loves laying with her mommy, gets fusterated easily when it comes to latching on during breastfeeding, likes to go pee when changing her, and mostly.. she loves laying skin to skin, and so do I! I could lay all day with her.

Gotta run, She just woke up!

Awe I love her :)

Today's the day!

Wow, its been 9 months already. TODAY is the due date!! I'm in disbelief to be honest. Mostly because 9 months ago, I wasn't aware of this.. wasn't prepared. I never imagined how much I could love this little girl. I never thought I would be a mother this soon and I really never expected this in my wildest dreams. I guess thats whats great about life. Chloe is the greatest gift, my reason for being here. I can't wait to see her, I hope she comes soon!

I'm really getting anxious and antsy. If I don't have her by Tuesday I have an apointment with my OB. I'm not sure whats going to happen at that point so I'll guess I'll wait to see if it comes down to that. I've been feeling pretty good. For the most part I have a decent amount of energy... that is, until I actually do something. Yesterday I vaccumed two rooms and did the dishes, I was pooped the rest of the day. Today I just took it easy and didn't really do anything :). I have spurts of energy and then spurts of tired, exhaustedness. I have been feeling pains as shes moving down further and shes still moving LOTS.

I'm so excited. COME NOW CHLOE!!!!!!! :D
I love you so much baby girl, can't wait to have you with me.

I really wonder what day she plans on coming :)

Friday.

Friday is the due date.

I'm really excited, anxious, and to be honest.. a little nervous. I'm not nervous about labor or pain, but about bringing her home. I know I can take care of her, but I also know I'll be calling my mom about a few things too lol. I guess I'm just nervous because shes my first child and although I have babysat and been around babys, nothing prepares you for being a parent. I have everything I need and I know I'm going to be a great mom. I can't wait to meet her. Everyone is so excited, but I don't think anyone is as excited as me. I don't really show it much sometimes but I really can't wait. My friend Amber just had her baby on friday. Hes gorgeous and looking at pictures made me want to cry because of how soon I get to meet her! Everyone wants her out right now, but I don't mind spending a few more days just me and her. I enjoy feeling her kick and roll, although the pains are starting to get at me lately. She will come when shes ready and I'm as ready as I can be, waiting. I hope shes healthy and happy.

I love my baby girl so much.
:)

What All Children Want Their Parents To Know

Teach me to love and care for myself,
Through your positive example.
I will learn much more from what you do than from anything you could ever say.
Notice me often and take joke in my existence,
So that I grow up to feel special and know that I'm loved.
Listen to me with an open ear and loving heart,
So that I learn to understand my feelings and trust that my needs will be heard.
Play with me often,
Let your guard down and be more carefree.
The memories will last long,
And our connection even longer.
Focus on what I'm doing right,
And tell me when you apprichiate me,
So that I learn to feel worthy and motivated to do even more.
Tell me more about your life, your hopes, your successes,
So that I learn to know you as a person and can call you my friend as well as my parent.

39 weeks :)

Well Chloe should be done growing now! Doc said that she grew a little from last week and her heart beat and everything is all good! My appointment went well, he didn't check how dialated I am or anything. I don't have an appointment next week because my doctor will be out of town for the week :(. Hes hoping I'll have her next week so I don't have to be induced or anything... and although I want her to come so bad, I can wait for him to get back haha. We made an appointment for March 3rd when hes back and he said we'll talk about setting up a date to be induced and all that! I've been having pelvic pains and I've been pretty exhausted

Everythings ready to go. Just waiting!

Love you Chloe baby.